User blog:Samuel17/Journal

From now on I'll be writing about how my life goes. Probably more convenient than userpage news.

03-01-16
What a wonderful fucking way to start off this new year.

Ugh.

As evidenced by my surprising Precision F Strike, I'm in a really, really, really bad mood. Looks like my family doesn't want to see me behind a computer screen anymore. It also turns out pretty much the entirety of my family values experience and "listening to elders/authority figures" way too much. Like, you are in no position to argue or respond or even question it. Getting shouted at just for not agreeing with an action they want me to do? And then saying that I'm disrespecting them? Jesus Christ.

Honestly, this is depressing.

I could very well list off what bullshit arguments/assumptions they have made against me. In fact, I'll do that right now. Really, they have no reason to worry about me. I'm doing very fine in school, I'm in a good shape, I have a healthy social life in school (and in the Internet, but don't expect them to acknowledge that) et cetera. Basically, everything is fine for me. Except when I'm in my own house. Because of my family. I wonder what's wrong there.
 * You are wasting your childhood. You will regret it. (It's subjective, so BS)
 * You spend too much time on the computer. (...And? I would like to know, yknow, the negative effects of being too much on the computer)
 * You don't do anything else but computer. (It goes multiple ways):
 * For entertainment purposes, computer is my favorite hobby (one member of my family does not consider videogames/computer as a hobby. Jesus Christ.). There is no reason for me to alternate: Why would I need to do that. How I spend my abundance of free time doesn't matter. Variety? I need to mix it up? That's subjective again, so BS.
 * I am fed up with this one. No, I don't fucking neglect breakfast, taking showers, brushing my teeth ect. Not my fault if you are all absent (applies to basically everyone), don't have the wits and spatial awareness to even notice me (my mother usually) or just have a short memory (my mother again). Utter BS.
 * The only even remotely relevant argument is taking care of my dog. AND THEN AGAIN, it's still shaky as first off it ain't just me that's taking care of him (mom also does a fine job at that). Oh and of course they have to exaggerate what I do (or don't do, sometimes), claiming that I only take him out every 6 hours. Piss off.
 * And of course, the obligatory "you're addicted" argument. Nevermind the fact that I just proved to everyone that I could pretty much outright ignore my laptop for nearly two weeks, even despite seeing it regularly on my room. Look, addict =/= doing something a lot, because that's what I do. I'm on the computer all the time because it's my favourite hobby, and I have nothing else to do in the meantime. Nothing more, nothing less. What else do you expect me to do at that age?
 * I need to socialise more, to interact more with people. (Nevermind the fact that I'm actually relatively social and friendly at school, or pretty much anywhere other than my own house. I think why I hate discussing with my own family is self-explanatory. Also, just because I can doesn't mean I need to. I know who I am, I know I can work around people if need be but that doesn't mean I'll necessariy come to them.)
 * Related to the previous ones: You need to go outside more often. (No. Why? I don't like to go outside if I don't have to. What the hell am I supposed to do out there? I'm just not that kind of person. And no, it is not JUST the computer that keeps me inside. What, removing every possible hobby of mine is going to eventually transform me into an outgoing, social person? Maybe out of desperation, but the key word being "desperation". So it isn't natural. Not the real me. There you go, their theory is disproved. Oh and by the way, I'm relatively healthy and in shape. Can't deny that exercising will help. It helps everyone. But I certainly won't be dying if I don't do that.)
 * You are still young. We've been through more and we know what's better for you. (Fuck you, that's what. You realise teenagers ARE nearly adults. Just because you lived through more things than me doesn't invalidate the opinion/arguments of anyone younger than you. You still have to take into consideration what younger people say and not shrug it off. Not to say they are always right. Far from it. But, for a second, treat them like adults and listen to their side of things, damn it!).
 * Worthy mention: "In my time, things weren't that way" arguments (One big screw you. If you think that people shouldn't question authority then you don't deserve to be an authority figure. Don't try to bring examples like "Did we question our parents when they told us to get back home by X time?". I know damn well this is for safety issues. But this? This is just us arguing about how to live my life. Are there possible consequences for being too much on the laptop later in adulthood? Maybe. But I'm pretty sure I'll want to get rid of them, if I have any. It's not like I'm being controlled by computers. I certainly don't want to compromise my job and end up having to move back in with my family. That would be embarrassing. Oh and since I'll likely be working, computer will already play a less important part of my daily life).
 * Probably some more that I forgot. But not bothering with that.

Anyhow, I'm stuck with comparatively little computer time (2  hours, apparently) for a long while. The rest of the time will likely be spent via Wii U-ing (in the meantime I'm really hoping to catch you guys in chat). There goes also the near entirety of my vacations, my mood and most of the respect I had for my family.

I'll be honest, I'm moving outta this house as soon as possible. Get a job, move out of this house into my own and wave my family goodbye and, more importantly, tell them one last  FUCK YOU .

I'll be the good life from now on. But you know there's something wrong when I say I wish time would go by faster so I could move out already! I don't care about how little free time in comparison I'll have. For me it is completly worth it.

The conclusion: More aware parents should not raise children with those kind of morals. Please help all of humanity by neutralising this mindset.

Sigh.

Man, that was a really long rant. It was also tedious to write this with Wii U, but my sheer rage alone kept me through this. Probably took long enough for me to cool off and being a slightly grumpier version of myself. Lol.

Remember this: You are all great friends and I love you all. You guys isolate me from the tough world outside. Couldn't ask for more, you are all great companions for me. This wiki is basically my exhaust, where I can cool off and share whatever I find interesting.

But for now I must retreat. If you're willing to, go in chat. I can pop by regularly or semi regularly.

Take care. Yours sincerely,

Samuel.